Dear me

Dear me, stop caring about what other people think, in life there is a small chance that you will know them past a 5 year period. Dear me, don’t listen to the voices that put you down, they don’t know what you have been through and who you really are, your stronger then them. Dear me, don’t let your past experiences shape who you are today, people make mistakes but its how you overcome them which matters the most. Dear me, stop looking for imperfections, they are who you are and you don’t need to change them. Dear me, stop obsessing over that one boy, if he loves you he will come back, if he doesn”t come back, hes’ not worth it. Dear me, the only person that can make you happy is yourself.

Hello to the people who may read this, I just thought that I would write a little reminder to myself of the most important aspects of life. i feel like in todays society, many people (including myself) get too carried away with the momentum of life and don’t stop too think about whats really important. But trust me, when you stop obsessing over the little things that bring you down, you will feel so refreshed you wouldn’t ever want to go back to how it was.

Remember you’re beautiful

Lmr going into the real world xo



It’s that time of year again were students start to stress over getting enough revisions done for their exams in the following few weeks. The thought that runs few every young persons mind is why do we have to take these tests? and to be honest I agree with them too.

However this isn’t really another way in which the students logical understandings can bee shown so I guess exams have to stay. But from a personal point of view the exam boards and teachers are putting way too much stress on the students. Many people I know are having breakdowns because they feel that what they are doing isn’t enough and with teachers constantly yelling at them too try harder, I think they forget that they are only young and this may be the first ever time where they have a had a large amount of responsibility for their future. At the end of the day, these exams are what set the future for these young people, if they get good levels then they are more likely to get into a good university and fulfill their dreams but if they get a bad level, which now can be done by dropping only one mark, then they feel like they have failed completely and that they should give up on their dreams.

In England where I am, the exam boards have unfairly raised the difficulty of the exams, they are making the students learn topics that they shouldnt have to learn for another few years, and the fact that they only got around a year to revise for this new scheme is extremely difficult.

However I wish you all luck to the ones who are going through these tests and remember that you should only worry about whats going to happen tomorrow not in a few years time, otherwise you will just get upset and it will affect your leaning, more than you are realising.

Im thinking about making my next post on ways of revising that I find effective but if you have any ideas yourself, then dont be scared to comment them.

remember you’re beautiful

Lmr going into the real world xox

Failing at resolutions …

So like everyone in the world, my new years resolution was to become a healthier person who does exercise everyday, and let me tell you, it aint going to well.

In the past few years ive always been active, I go on runs around my local area and i will do mini workout in my bedroom but one thing that I never did was eat healthy, so all the work I put it to try to exercise regally werent paying off, so I thought, for the new year I will do both and make improvements to my body.

However it seems like I cant do both as I will either eat really healthy but not exercise or go for runs but eat a ton of rubbish.

It was really annoying me so I went on instragram and made an account that would motivate me and others to get into fitness and to remind myself never to give up. And to be honest, im glad I did as it really has helped me into getting in the right mind-set and getting up off my arse to benefit my body.

Sorry for the short post, I havent really had time lately due to school starting back up and family issues but i hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and a good new year.

Let me know if you guys want me to write about my workout routine or what I eat daily as I would be happy to share.

Question – what were your new years resolutions and have you kept them?

Remember you’re beautiful x

Lmr gooing into the real world xxx

intragram – fitnessmotivation5715

The ‘perfect christmas’

Wow where has 2016 gone? its gone by so fast it’s actually unreal however in a way im glad it had because i have to admit, this was one of the hardest years of my life.

When you were young did you ever used to write your mum or dad a list of what you wanted to give them and put the prices next to them however the lists end up being multiple page long and when you give it to your parents they just stare at you blankly, yeah that was me haha however i was thinking this year on what i could ask for christmas this year but i thought of nothing.

This is because i only have one wish i would want to get (technically two) for both my mum and by brother to be home on Christmas day. its horrible  watching tv this time of year because on every advert there’s the ‘perfect family’ all sitting around a perfect table with perfect smiles on their perfect faces and how much of that is true. personally myself i have never had one of these ‘perfect Christmases’

has anyone noticed how in these adverts there absolutely no arguments happening, now how unrealistic is that. i can never get through a christmas without at least 5 arguments happening between my family members.admititally  it’s normally stupid arguments that are over in minutes however they still happen which in my eyes makes our family real.

anyway back to my mum and brother, both of them have the possibility to work over christmas, my mum for certain is however my brother always varies, he can get a call that he’s allowed home but the next day the same person will say that he has to come back to work but that’s his job.

But one thing is, i refuse to have my christmas without those two, no matter how long it takes i will only open those presents under the tree when everyone is around me. it wouldn’t feel like christmas without them,

Anyway guys i hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and don’t stress over it too much 😉

Remember your beautiful

Lmr going into the real world xoxo

Will see you soon – L x

Bit how ironic how in my last blog post I said that I wanted the time off in summer to relax and forget my worries but it ended up being one of the worst summers I have ever had, its a summer I want to forget.

On the 16th August 2016 my beloved nana was sent up to heaven, the angels took her because she was in pain and now she’s one of them looking down on us all. She had a heart attack, even if she didn’t know it, she just collapsed and went to sleep.  My poor grandad stayed by her side through all of it, never leaving her even though her heart had stopped working. He tried to wake her but she just never came through, it was a sign of god that a pair of hard working hands got put to rest.

It had distraught the family and I never want to relive it again. Once my mum found out, she was in pain, her heart had sunk and her eyes didn’t have a spark anymore. i remember travelling up on that day, with her driving while crying and my dad next to her in trying to support her, but i was in the back frozen not knowing what to do. i couldn’t bring it to me that he was actually gone. She was my hero, she couldn’t have been gone. But she didn’t go as she was always going to be in my heart, even though we may not visit her anymore it doesn’t mean she isn’t with us. she’s still there.

The funeral was the worst, i can’t even put into words how hard it was, sitting there in the front row crying my eyes out and looking like a racoon because of my smudged eyeliner that i regret putting on in the morning. I think the worst part of it was when the speak said how nana loved all her grandchildren, more than anything and she used to spoil her youngest grandchild lucy (Me), always showing her love. It was those memories i will always remember her

I miss her so much but i will make her proud and she will always be remembered from all of her family and her friends.

I love you nana and i will see you soon – Lucy x

Summer :)

So right now i’m actually glad its summer (or winter depending on where you are), I’m taking this time to just relax and clear out my mind, almost as if i can get a fresh start once school starts up again.

I know that there will be complications in the coming months but i don’t want to stress over stuff that hasn’t even happened yet and for the past events, well lets just try to forget them for now.

So if your like me and you have no clue how to spend your summer, i have made a list of things to can do to make this summer worth remembering.

  1. Have a picnic in a park or a quiet area with a group or a couple of friends – This allows you to have fun while you eat nice things, what more could you want! 😉
  2. Make your own unique banana split – Just go out and get all the sweet things you can find and combine it in one, this is handy for the extra hot days.
  3. Discover a new area – Yes this means that you actually have to go outside and walk about but once you find a new area i can assure you it will be exciting, besides it could be your new special area that only you know about.
  4. Have Breakfast for dinner – i don’t really know why but it sounds fun, unless you don’t have breakfast instead you can just go straight to dessert.
  5. Do a puzzle – you can save this for one of those rainy days but if your like me who takes forever to complete a puzzle then this is a fun way to spend those boring days.
  6. Go stargazing – this can be fun alone or with someone else, try making an object out of the stars for each letter of the alphabet, it can get pretty funny at times.
  7. Roast marshmellows
  8. watch an entire series or season of a tv show on tv or netflix – this is also good for those days were you don’t want to socialise with anyone which is pretty much me everyday.
  9. make a fort – this is a great excuse to stay indoors all day, you can collect snacks and watch videos online, again you don’t have to do this alone.
  10. Carve your name in a tree – this is a great one to look back on in the future, it doesnt just have to be your name you can include a friend or that special someone if you desire to.

I hope these helped you spend someone of your time these few months and if you have any more suggestions feel free to comment them down below.

Remember you are Beautiful in your own way

Lmr going into the real world xoxo


im not sure how many of you actually suffer from anxiety but what i do know is that its more common then you think.

there is a number of times in a persons life when they will feel anxiety rush through them, however some people have to cope with this on day to day basis. Its one of the mental illnesses where the person that is dealing with it may seem ok but inside they are fighting a battle with themselves and at many occasions they feel like they are loosing.

Anxiety is an awful thing to have. whether you have it occasionally or regularly is can easily ruin your life like it has for me.

When i was younger everyone thought that i was a shy girl who didn’t like to socialise with people. in many cases that is correct however there is more to the actions that i did. I didn’t just feel shy, i felt that everyone eyes were on my body, judging my every move. i thought that if i mess up, everyone would think i was a looser or an idiot. If anyone laughed around me i always think that its about me and i start to feel small.

Due to my anxiety it made me extremely self-conscious. i would constantly worry about the clothes that i was wearing and hug my body to try and hide the fat that i thought i had. Many people would ask me why i always had my arms around my body, they asked questions like “are you cold or something?” or ” is your stomach hurting?” and with every sentence they said it always loomed over me.

If someone said something to me that i didn’t completely understand i would torture myself by thinking about it for days, i always saw the subtext behind it even though sometimes thats not what they actually meant.

Anxiety is also a reason why i hate school, when a teacher randomly picks on me, i have an instant flush, my whole body heats up and my face turns red. i start to sweat and most times i stutter. It annoys the hell out of me as i normally know the correct answer to the question asked however the words just dont come out of my mouth.  Also in the cafeteria, i would always check if i have the right amount of money about 1000 times, i panic just in case i dont and at many times i actually give my friends my money so they can buy me something, not because i’m lazy but because i dont want to be in that situation.

Honestly anxiety is awful, however its a apart of me and I’ve learned how to cope with it in my own ways. If any of you need advise please dont hesitate to contact me as i will always listen no matter what the circumstance is.

Remember your Beautiful

Lmr going into the real world xoxo


Im sorry!

Before i start this can i just say that im sorry i haven’t been on but a lot has happened since i last wrote.

The fight between my friends is still going on and to be honest its startong to get ridiculous. Its been months and neither of them have talked to each other, they are both running away from their problems and not facing them head on.

Also ive had some bad news about my mum. So For a while my mum has been feeling very ill, her eye sight would suddenly go and she gets aches and pains all around her body. After a lot of blood tests she was finally diagnosed with MS (multiple Sclerosis) this can not be cured. A little bit about is there is substance called myelin which protects the nerve fibers in the central nervous system, this  helps messages travel quickly and smoothly between the brain and the rest of the body. when you have MS, your  immune system  which normally helps to fight off infections, mistakes myelin for a foreign body and attacks it. This damages the myelin and strips it off the nerve fibers, either partially or completely, leaving scars. After a long period of time it can cause disabilities.

Of course our family is shocked about this but im trying to stay strong for her, we all are. The last thing she needs is her little daughter worrying about her because i know what shes like and she hates attention.

This has just shown what can happen in a short time period, so my advice to all of you would be respects and honor what you have now because you never know when it will be taken away from you.

If you guys want me to talk about anything particular then just leave a comment down below and i will read your suggestions. Also thank you for all the support!

Remember your Beautiful

Lmr going into the real world xoxo


So all my life i have been in the same area in England meaning that i haven’t moved schools. This comes with having the same friends for years.
However just because i have known them for a long time doesnt mean  that they know me the best
you see lately there has been a fight between
my friends, including a friend who i have know for around 10 years. They started to call each other names which im not going to repeat and they started to disrespect each other. if this wasn’t bad enough the next day she stated to spread around secrets that they told each other. This is what i found wrong, i get it she made you angry but this is no way to deal with it. she told you those secrets with her will, thinking that she could trust you and you go and spread it like its an everyday thing! nothing about what you did is right because that girl has been depressed, she has self harmed and now everyone thinks shes a freak. Shes self harming again because of the things you said. is this what you wanted? is this your revenge? i hope not!
what im trying to say is that the friend you knew the most could change and become someone you thought you knew and the girl you didnt think much of is could turn into your sister.
If you have every been in a huge argument, please do not spread their secrets. it will not help, instead it will just make it worse. please just respect other people and their feelings.
If you want to talk to someone about any problems your having please feel free to talk to me, im always here.
Remember you are beautiful!
Lmr going into the real world xoxo

I need help!!

so you guy know that i was previously talking about blue eyes well i have decided that i need to move on, it will be better for me. 

I have started to know that he doesn’t care about how i feel and if im sad he only cares about my looks. He isnt worth it and i wish i had learnt that before. 

However there is this new guy who has started talking to me but then we started to learn more about each other and show our true selfs. On friday i started to get upset and i may of cried a little but he was right there hugging me telling me everything. Since that point he has continued to hug me and make sure that im okay. . 

I dont know what to do because i dont know if i like him or not. Its so frustrating but when i am in his arms i do feel safe … and he smells really nice XD .

if you have any advise for me please let me know 

remember you are beautiful 

Lmr going into the real world xoxo