You didn’t do anything wrong…

I can almost confirm that most of you have met a person in your life unexpectedly. they made you fall for them unexpectedly, they made you happy unexpectedly, but they left unexpectedly. But the reason they left was because there was someone else.

And you’re left wondering why. you go through different stages, sadness, the initial realisation that things will never be the same. Anger, normally towards the said person who caused the tears but sometimes anger to yourself which leads to the next stage, regret, you regret defending the person you loved when everyone said they were going to cause you pain, you regret not listening to them and you regret thinking they were different.

But something everyone needs to know is that you didn’t do anything wrong, they cheated because it’s in their nature and I can put money on the fact that the next relationship they have, they will do the same. Don,t put yourself down for something that you cannot control, keep your head up and move on with the world because one day you will meet a new person which will make your world light up like it’s never been before.

i hope this allows one person to realise that someones actions don’t define who you are, you are you and don’t let anybody change that.

Exams

It’s that time of year again were students start to stress over getting enough revisions done for their exams in the following few weeks. The thought that runs few every young persons mind is why do we have to take these tests? and to be honest I agree with them too.

However this isn’t really another way in which the students logical understandings can bee shown so I guess exams have to stay. But from a personal point of view the exam boards and teachers are putting way too much stress on the students. Many people I know are having breakdowns because they feel that what they are doing isn’t enough and with teachers constantly yelling at them too try harder, I think they forget that they are only young and this may be the first ever time where they have a had a large amount of responsibility for their future. At the end of the day, these exams are what set the future for these young people, if they get good levels then they are more likely to get into a good university and fulfill their dreams but if they get a bad level, which now can be done by dropping only one mark, then they feel like they have failed completely and that they should give up on their dreams.

In England where I am, the exam boards have unfairly raised the difficulty of the exams, they are making the students learn topics that they shouldnt have to learn for another few years, and the fact that they only got around a year to revise for this new scheme is extremely difficult.

However I wish you all luck to the ones who are going through these tests and remember that you should only worry about whats going to happen tomorrow not in a few years time, otherwise you will just get upset and it will affect your leaning, more than you are realising.

Im thinking about making my next post on ways of revising that I find effective but if you have any ideas yourself, then dont be scared to comment them.

remember you’re beautiful

Lmr going into the real world xox

Summer :)

So right now i’m actually glad its summer (or winter depending on where you are), I’m taking this time to just relax and clear out my mind, almost as if i can get a fresh start once school starts up again.

I know that there will be complications in the coming months but i don’t want to stress over stuff that hasn’t even happened yet and for the past events, well lets just try to forget them for now.

So if your like me and you have no clue how to spend your summer, i have made a list of things to can do to make this summer worth remembering.

1. Have a picnic in a park or a quiet area with a group or a couple of friends – This allows you to have fun while you eat nice things, what more could you want! 😉
2. Make your own unique banana split – Just go out and get all the sweet things you can find and combine it in one, this is handy for the extra hot days.
3. Discover a new area – Yes this means that you actually have to go outside and walk about but once you find a new area i can assure you it will be exciting, besides it could be your new special area that only you know about.
4. Have Breakfast for dinner – i don’t really know why but it sounds fun, unless you don’t have breakfast instead you can just go straight to dessert.
5. Do a puzzle – you can save this for one of those rainy days but if your like me who takes forever to complete a puzzle then this is a fun way to spend those boring days.
6. Go stargazing – this can be fun alone or with someone else, try making an object out of the stars for each letter of the alphabet, it can get pretty funny at times.
7. Roast marshmellows
8. watch an entire series or season of a tv show on tv or netflix – this is also good for those days were you don’t want to socialise with anyone which is pretty much me everyday.
9. make a fort – this is a great excuse to stay indoors all day, you can collect snacks and watch videos online, again you don’t have to do this alone.
10. Carve your name in a tree – this is a great one to look back on in the future, it doesnt just have to be your name you can include a friend or that special someone if you desire to.

I hope these helped you spend someone of your time these few months and if you have any more suggestions feel free to comment them down below.

Remember you are Beautiful in your own way

Lmr going into the real world xoxo

Im sorry!

Before i start this can i just say that im sorry i haven’t been on but a lot has happened since i last wrote.

The fight between my friends is still going on and to be honest its startong to get ridiculous. Its been months and neither of them have talked to each other, they are both running away from their problems and not facing them head on.

Also ive had some bad news about my mum. So For a while my mum has been feeling very ill, her eye sight would suddenly go and she gets aches and pains all around her body. After a lot of blood tests she was finally diagnosed with MS (multiple Sclerosis) this can not be cured. A little bit about is there is substance called myelin which protects the nerve fibers in the central nervous system, this  helps messages travel quickly and smoothly between the brain and the rest of the body. when you have MS, your  immune system  which normally helps to fight off infections, mistakes myelin for a foreign body and attacks it. This damages the myelin and strips it off the nerve fibers, either partially or completely, leaving scars. After a long period of time it can cause disabilities.

Of course our family is shocked about this but im trying to stay strong for her, we all are. The last thing she needs is her little daughter worrying about her because i know what shes like and she hates attention.

This has just shown what can happen in a short time period, so my advice to all of you would be respects and honor what you have now because you never know when it will be taken away from you.

If you guys want me to talk about anything particular then just leave a comment down below and i will read your suggestions. Also thank you for all the support!

Remember your Beautiful

Lmr going into the real world xoxo

Friends?

So all my life i have been in the same area in England meaning that i haven’t moved schools. This comes with having the same friends for years.

However just because i have known them for a long time doesnt mean  that they know me the best

you see lately there has been a fight between
my friends, including a friend who i have know for around 10 years. They started to call each other names which im not going to repeat and they started to disrespect each other. if this wasn’t bad enough the next day she stated to spread around secrets that they told each other. This is what i found wrong, i get it she made you angry but this is no way to deal with it. she told you those secrets with her will, thinking that she could trust you and you go and spread it like its an everyday thing! nothing about what you did is right because that girl has been depressed, she has self harmed and now everyone thinks shes a freak. Shes self harming again because of the things you said. is this what you wanted? is this your revenge? i hope not!

what im trying to say is that the friend you knew the most could change and become someone you thought you knew and the girl you didnt think much of is could turn into your sister.

If you have every been in a huge argument, please do not spread their secrets. it will not help, instead it will just make it worse. please just respect other people and their feelings.

If you want to talk to someone about any problems your having please feel free to talk to me, im always here.

Remember you are beautiful!

Lmr going into the real world xoxo

I need help!!

so you guy know that i was previously talking about blue eyes well i have decided that i need to move on, it will be better for me. 

I have started to know that he doesn’t care about how i feel and if im sad he only cares about my looks. He isnt worth it and i wish i had learnt that before. 

However there is this new guy who has started talking to me but then we started to learn more about each other and show our true selfs. On friday i started to get upset and i may of cried a little but he was right there hugging me telling me everything. Since that point he has continued to hug me and make sure that im okay. . 

I dont know what to do because i dont know if i like him or not. Its so frustrating but when i am in his arms i do feel safe … and he smells really nice XD .

if you have any advise for me please let me know 

remember you are beautiful 

Lmr going into the real world xoxo

Hi :)

So im here writing my first blog

do you know a champain bottle? when you open it, it pops yeah well i need to pop other wise and going to explode. There is so much running through me that i need to get it out. however as the person i am im scared about saying all my problems to the real world, im just not that type of girl. so that is why im writing, it may also help all of you because you may be going through what i have been going through and i can help you with how i resolved my dilemmas. I want you all to know that your not alone. I have mad this blog anonymous because i want to me totally me. im worried that if i say who i am to all of you then i would be worried about being judged and its hard enough as it is in the “real world”.

Cheesecake (not his real name) my best friend doesnt even know that im writing this blog. i love him to bits but he doesnt get how i feel with anxiety because he doesnt have it. i wish i was him in so many ways but that is for another day

I completly get why girls are always sad and have anxiety:

1. we always think that we have to wear make up to look pretty
2. you are expected to act perfect all the time.
3. we always spot the flaws in our selfs and try to hide them
4. Hormones … not much to say on that one
5. you have to wear exactly the right things
6. your selfies should be “on point”
7. You have to have loads of likes on your status or photo
8. your supposed to fuss about boys when your dealing with yourself
9. your expected to put on a brave face
10. and when you do cry you just get judged and people say she just want attention.

Its not easy being a teenager so this is why im here for you

Remember your beautiful and thanks for reading

Lmr going into the real world xox